blog 02 entry :: body issues, bsap meetings and and breakfast (feat. european beauty standards)

today has been a hard one so far, even though it just started.

today is friday (in my timezone) and that means i got called to my first bsap meeting of the year. it was kind of stressful cuz it was pretty loud but like everywhere is loud so it was no big deal. they gave us a couple papers and an envelope to put the papers in, and i decided to stay in the bsap room until the period was finished. but before that, i had to get ready in the morning. i went in the bathroom and looked at the mirror. i didnt look that good (in my opinion) and i felt pretty upset because i thought i looked better yesterday. i did listen to a couple subliminals the previous day (the day that i looked better) so i thought that maybe the subliminals were working. i decided to add a couple more to my playlist because you can never have too many subs!! hopefully they work as well as they did last time. anyways, by then i was on the bus and my stomach started hurting, and then i felt really sad because my hunger bummed me out for some reason. when i got off the bus (it went super quick this time!) and i talked to my friend about my issues, my thoughts and ideals, and about how european beauty standards have ruined countless lives because of its unattainable appearance  (well maybe not that last part. i did talk about something similar though.) and by then i had walked to the cafeteria area and grabbed some free breakfast.

thats about it, thanks for reading. bye bye.

(the color for today is blue because im in a sal shift.)