How my Earth mom had me.

So I really want to get this off my chest. I used to say it wasn't my story to tell, but in a sense some of it is my story to tell. I will just try mostly to say what happened on my side involving the Maz'eh human breeding program I went through to get to the destination of my human mission along with details involving me. 

So there is no easy way to say this. 😔

My mother I got assigned to on Earth was one of the abductees they would collect. *sighs* 

Now I was assigned to go through them for the mission so I didn't partake in abducting any humans. They were able to implant me into my Earth mother. My mom was a 41 year old woman at the time trying to get pregnant.  She had just got married to her 2nd husband who happens to be my Earth biological father.  She had a miscarriage before me & 7 miscarriages after having me. Her body wasn't actually able to carry anymore children,  but the Maz'eh were able to make somethings happen with their medical techniques in order for her to have me. I know what I am saying will sound crazy to anyone reading this.  I do want to get all of this off my chest. I haven't been able to tell my mom any of this. I feel bad about it. I don't know how she would feel to know that. 

Growing up she would tell me how I was her miracle baby for being able to survive in her womb that was meant to not carry babies anymore. When I was 7 years old she had to get a  hysterectomy due to her problems involving this. 

Well basically I feel awful.  How would she feel to know or does she know? Yes as an adult my mother openly told me about some of her memories with the aliens. She rarely talks about it & according to her nothing about it was a great experience.  This also means biologically through her I do have half siblings that are hybrids from the Maz'eh.  I am assuming that atleast the majority of them are yahyel. Regardless I feel bad for them they didn't get to know her. 

In a sense (could just be my human thinking) I do wish for the breeding programs they would get willing volunteers instead of people that don't agree to this. When going through the breeding program I wasn't aware she didn't consent to them having her a part of their program. I didn't get information about her. I was just sent on my mission basically.  The Galactic Federation is about getting humans to be accepting rather than force. Where the Maz'eh doesn't have it to where they can tap into this feelings because they are basic about getting the job done. I am not saying the Maz'eh is evil, they just don't know how to tap into the feelings humans have. That is why it is hard for their hybrids to get the nurturing they need because it is the hybrids that did inherit those feelings from the humans in the breeding programs.  

Basically that is all for now. I never got to get this out before. I have grown to love my human mom I was assigned too. I just wish it was a setup she would of agreed to or that I could of got assigned to someone that agreed to all of this.