Crush dilemma P1

Crush 1:

this crush is practically forbidden. he’s 42 so thrice my age. its super hopeless because he’s (i’m pretty sure) happily married with 3 kids. plus he’s my Spanish teacher which is pretty huge lmao. ugh i don’t even know he’s just so so so perfect. i love everything about him he’s so ugh!! i kept a chip with guacamole he made in class. i’m not going to do any love spells though i hope. Sometimes i have impulsive moments so im not sure. i feel like a terrible person loving him though. his wife is super pretty and nice. she’s super cute. she’s 45. he’s into older women. i just get so giddy every time i think of him or see him. i smile every time i pass his class. i stare him in the eyes every class. i don’t stare too hard because that’d be weird but i don’t look away when he looks at me. I write his initials in dishsoap every time i do dishes. i whisper his name in seashells. he’s just so funny, smart, handsome, he’s everything you could want in a man. i know so much about him even though i hardly speak to him. I admire him so much. i love his stories. i love his voice. i yearn for him so much it hurts. ew this got sad real quick. he was my track coach last year. probably gonna blog more about him 

Crush 2:

This is gonna make me sound horrible but this is Crush 1’s son…. He’s a year younger than me and he’s so cute. i’ve never spoken to him or ever had a class with him but just from when i hear him speak and see him in the hallways i just really like him. he’s so interesting. i just wanna know more about him yk? i figured out his locker number so i’m planning on sending him a secret admirer letter in his locker! it’s not gonna be creepy, it’s gonna be friendly kinda romantic genuine interest kinda letter with a red lipstick kiss mark! i love his hair and his face so much. i know he likes spaces, nasa, etc.