a friend. (that i may or may not have a giant crush on)

theres a boy that i met threeish years ago (in sixth grade,,we're in ninth now)  ive never been one with good attendance. (literally never. ive almost always been truant) i left public school after covid hit. (6th grade. i never showed up or did any online class work) i did a program(for 7th) that wouldve allowed me to graduate in 2024 (im class of 26') but i wasnt learning anything so i went back to public school for 8th grade (21-22) i misssed over 100 days of school and i failed 1 class but i some how passed to 9th grade. (i failed a few classes but only 1 in the last semester) me and this boy only had one class together (history) it was during 6th period (right after lunch) we started talking again and became friends again. (i think we were friends in 6th but we stopped talking *explanation above* my attendance made us not be super close) hes super sweet,,(i think he was just raised right (his mom seems bitchy) cis teen boys arent usually nice so that came as a surprise to me) and respectful. I somehow found out that he walked home (i have shit memory so i dont remember how) i started walking with him when my dad was late picking me up (that was often because my sister goes to school 20ish minutes away from me and she got out 30 minutes before me) we started giving him rides home because i felt bad and it wasnt far. i got his number (after almost dying when i asked him for it) i texted him after i got home,, out first conversation over text was about me being trans and about my name (i set my contact as ":0" because my dad was around *my dad doesnt accept me so i couldnt explain around my dad*) He said he was okay with being friends with me after i told him (some people dont accept people like me) BLAH BLAH BLAH we got closer and got to know each other better. (i finally got a picture with him the day of our 8th grade completion ceremony *a few hours before it because we gave him a ride home*) We again only have 1 class together (algebra 1) and its 8th//last period. (ive missed over 2 weeks of school (we started school august 8th) because i got surgery on 9/1 and i was sick before that) so i dont see him much. (our school is huge so seeing him in the halls is a rare occasion) I hate admitting it but i have a crush on him. (im gay. (MLM i have a gf (im poly) but shes the only female id ever date. so im not technally gay but i say i am) (HE KNOWS THAT IM GAY) i asked if he was and he said no:((   When i say crush i mean he has me giggling,, and smiling when he says hi in the halls and when i talk about him. (sometimes just from talking to him or being in the same room) its getting ridiculous. (ive even tried manifesting him.....) MY DAD EVEN PICKED UP ON IT.

  thats pretty much all for now. i have a lot of short storys involving him to share. look out for those. -kaz:(