tw ed mention (but recovered)

im definitely not anorexic anymore, which im grateful to be over since it was probably the worst thing to happen to me, but why is it still in the back of my mind?

Like don't get me wrong I understand its not a healthy or productive way to lose weight but I wish I didn't have to worry act the thoughts creeping up again :(

maybe its because I endured/recovered in secret that its harder to avoid accountability idk