ive returned

SO ive officially been moved into dorms for a bit under a week and so far uni isnt so bad but its also. not good. :// its gonna take a while to adjust to for sure. ive been having so many panic attacks lol its not even funny

this morning i took out my rooms trash but theres a problem: idk where tf they put their extra garbage bags??? they have them somewhere, my roommate said he thinks theyre prob in a janitors closet but??? where tf is the janitors closet?? i cant just go roaming around trying to find it bc i dont wanna look like an idiot

also yesterday some guy laughed at me while i was walking by for some reason and it made me feel shitty

i have to do my dishes but im too scareddd to go down to the kitchen like what if theres ppl there? what if someones doing THEIR dishes and i have to wait???

another issue today is that out of nowhere all the shower lights are off and i cant find the lights for the showers and i really really need a shower. perhaps i'll be showering in nearly pitch black today ig

i feel like im gonna end up making my roommate hate me idk like im so fucking annoying n i keep asking him questions about stuff bc i dont know where anything is and also my desk kinda looks messy but his is nice n clean but its also cuz i have a lot of stuff and nowhere to put it while he didnt rly bring a lot idk idk i feel shitty ab everything and i worry that he hates me 

also also also my physics professor is insufferably boring, hes so monotone and like?? terrible?? at teaching?? he just kinda started doing conversions randomly and he hasnt told us what fuckin formula hes using n shit and he doesnt explain anything?? im gonna end up teaching myself everything. hes so bad that this one girl literally just packed her stuff up and left like 30 minutes into the lecture

my chemistry professor loves to waste time talking about the syllabus n shit instead of teaching. so far the only 2 classes ive had with her were introductory classes when all my other lectures have already gone onto start teaching?????

anyways im going home for the weekend tomorrow and i cant wait to get out of here, i dont think im going to enjoy my university experience, this shit sucks