HELP HELP HELP

ok im stupid

BASICALLY THERES THE BLOOD VIAL TREND ON TIKTOK WHERE U PUT UR PARTNERS BLOOD INTO A LITTLE VIAL/PENDENT/BOTTLE AND WEAR IT AS A NECKLACE OR BRACELET

but... i am single

SO I DID IT MYSELF WITH MY OWN BLOOD OFC IM FUCKING INSANE BUT JUST SO YALL KNOW I DIDNT USE MY FKING PERIOD BLOOD BECOZ THAT WOULD BE GROSS AND UNHYGENIC ALTHOUGH STORING BLOOD IN GENERAL ISNT VERY HYGENIC AS MINE ISNT IN A VIAL THING I PUT IT IN A BOTTLE THAT HELD FUCKING GLITTER FROM A NAIL POLISH SET (i tired handsanitizer it all turned into chunks so i just resorted to using water in which theres still chunks but more liquid)

but um yh so i chop chop chopped at my thigh but stupid ass me decided to carve a little heart <3 because so kawaii, BUT ANYWAYS IM STUPID BECAUSE I REALISE IT WILL SCAR AND ITS NOT JUST LIKE A LINE ITS A FULL ON NEATLY CARVED HEART AND IF IVE BEEN FOUND OUT PPL R GONNA FORCE HELP ON ME UNLESS I TEL THEM WHAT I WERE DOING in which they will think im insane but insanity is an aesthetic nowadays so who cares (i really do)

i cant even cover it with underwear im going to school soon and theyll notice in pe when i change, ive been putting petrolaum, sanatizer and wasted loads of plasters it hasnt healed yet, hopefully it wont stick out because none of my other cuts do which is lucky 4 me but its on my stretch marks which kinda makes it more visable

 think ima cover it with a plaster, mabye put some concealer over it but im more worried about swimming, when on holidays when im swimming and my legs r visible.

i try not to worry hopefully it disappears by then the most viewable scar i have is on my hand which i did but still hardly noticable (thanking my immune system) but ofc y never know

if anyone has tips on how to prevent scarring pls lmk because im literally shaking out my shits

for anyone concerned i dont have sa or any mental issues, its a kink and im low.

idc who reads i have no friends on here anyways im disguised 

ty <3