Whats school like for me

Originally wrote this at the Teen Group, but I wrote that much that it also deserves its own blog post.

 Horrible.

Ive always been bullied for no reason in primary school, they just targeted me as a person they can intimidate, the same goes for some of my close friends who also used to get bullied by other kids.

When I started high school most of the kids were going to the high school that was literally located a new meters away from our elementary school,  but I decided to study at another place to avoid problems and make new friends but in the end what I found there was more bullies and fake friends, when that year finished I ended up with 0 new friends, so I changed back to the centre were all my elementary school friends studied.

When I started the second year of high school I thought everything was going to be ok, because I had a friend in class and my bff  and other old friend, but, oh boy, I WAS WRONG, in fact I consider that year ONE OF THE WORSTS IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I got bullied AGAIN and I lost lots of friends that were very important for me, even my best friend, who, guess what, THEY ALL TURNED OUT TO BE FAKE FRIENDS, I wish I saw the red flags before so in that way Ive prevented all the drama and sadness that came after. At the time when summer kicked in, I was still very sad about what happened and I could not stop blaming myself because of that.

This last year was much more relaxed, I didn't got bullied and I regained the trust of my other childhood best friend that I lost because of the manipulation of the bestfriend I lost the past year. Although at the start of the year I had a high social anxiety level and deppresion I've slowly overcome it and getting mentally better. Also this year I started bullying a little bit my old-new best friend exboyfriend because he acted like a total asshole with her and even cyber bullied her and other awful things.

Today is Tuesday 6, and the new school year starts in two days, and I wonder what is going to happen this time.