idk whats real

i have a hard time defining what is real most times so when i wake up i feel as though i am in the wrong place at the wrong time. and if one little thing is different about my mornings, like if my mother says goodmorning to me (she never does) i will instantly think i'm dreaming or nothing is real. the most real i feel is when i'm asleep, dreaming... but my dreams are nonsensical. i just woke up from this dream where i was running away from fuck knows what with friends and they all got into a car but closed the door and wouldn't let me in. i went to the front of the car and there was some random lady in there so i reached into the passengers side to,, grab her?? and she looked terrified, then my friends disappeared, like they were never real. so i ran out of that car and a bunch of people with cameras started chasing me and police too. i did these amazing parkour skills around the town until i got home, ran inside and my mother looked furious with me, i was freaking out and closing curtains and told her "they are after me"