Rant/ Vent

im litrally about to become a whore again if my bf either leaves me or just stops showing intrest in me, like, im sick of being treated like nothing so im going to try to get something i actually want, like someone to fucking love me nd prove it. instead of trying their hardest to not talk to me or atleats show love. like god damn this is annoying, and there are plenty of other people waiting for me to become single just so they can tyr to flirt with me, and if this boy leaves me then everyone else will know. i littrally just want to feel loved by someone, because my mom failed at doing that my whole life, this is so fucking annoying, and the fact my best friend stoped talking to me because she likes this one guy who i have nothing to do with, anf then my moms being a bitch, and so is my stp dad, like they wont shut tf up about every little thing, litrally karen and ken. ike dude, shut tf up, no one gives a shit if the food isnt perfectly cooked to how oyu want it you stupid bitch, but again with the whore shit, if he wont appreciate me and everything that i have been doing for him then ill fond someone who does, god damn i need to work on myself more ._.