TW! life

I haven't been on here in a little

but I have done something that caused someone I care deeply for to leave and I dont know how to handle myself.

so yesterday I ran away. I left right after school and ran to some orchards far away. and I stayed there crying for about 6 hours just crying and screaming. I believe that I deserve to be here anymore. I hurt someone and i regret it so much I dont think I can do this anymore 

sorry for saying this but I dont know how else to vent