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All my life, my mom was always there but not really there if that makes sense. She was either working because she was a single mother or busy finishing college. When i was younger, i wanted to be just like her. I loved her and thought she was the greatest person. Then, for some reason, she changed. She became this mentally and abusive person. As i got older, i got smarter and realized how much of a horrible person she was and tried to confront her. I asked why she out of nowhere started acting like i was this big burden in her life and how she would choose any and every guy over me and all she could say was that shes only human and that she made mistakes but id have to move on. She didnt even say sorry. All my life, if i showed any emotion to the horrible things that she said, id be called to sensitive. At that time i thought she was right but now i know that i have the right to feel any emotion i want. After years and years of her just belittling me and making feel like i was worthless, i for some reason still want her to be "my mom." I still want her to be how she used to be with me. A sweet, caring person that made me feel loved and safe. Im just conflicted. One part at me is screaming to get away from her the second i can and never talk to her again. The other part is just wanting to have a good relationship and forget everything shes done but how can you forget years of trauma done by your own mother?
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yuri
Honestly, I can relate to that.
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My mother also was a single mom and had to raise me and my little sister while my dad was in prison (even if he was out he'd only give us some money so idk), she neglected our emotional needs in so many levels that today I can't trust no one with my feelings. I can't love anymore.
I tried talking to her once about all the crap that happened to me and all she could say was that I need to understand that she had other worries, and that she was sorry for everything. But when I tried talking about what I felt again she was just like "oh you need to learn how to deal with it".
Yeah mom thanks that helped a lot I don't have depression and anxiety anymore lmfao
I hope things get better for you, really :')
(Also sorry for commenting again I responded to the other person by mistake
Omg im so sorry that u have to relate to this but thank you!!
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Np! Just know that you're not alone :›
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GET AWAY FROM HER ASAPPP
I think thats what im going to do once im able thanksss
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YWWW YOU CAN DO THISSS
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