feeling bad

but i really like making myself sad and i don't really know the reason behind it. like ill be having a perfectly fine day and then read really bad angst fanfictions or turn on a super sad playlist. Sometimes its just nice to sit and be sad for a while. 

I dont really have that much to be sad about. my looks are average, i dont get bullied, my grades are fine, and my friends are all super great. but theres something so comforting in artificial lonliness

anyways sorry for being emo haha