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Random thoughts on BPD, working on new YT videos

After watching that Vice/Paris Hilton thing about a girl with Borderline PD, I couldn't help being reminded of Tourette's syndrome, and started wondering if BPD might have a neurological component as well as psychological one and a probably trauma history aspect. Now reading articles from the Journal of Abnormal Psychology about the neuroscience of BPD. Because of course there is, and it's linked to frontolimbic dysfunction.

Free association: it also makes me think of Edgar Allan Poe's story "The Imp of the Perverse," but upon reading that again, that's also like "l'appel du vide," Call of the Void. Poe biographer Jeffrey Meyers suggested that Poe wrote it to "justify his own actions of self-torment and self-destruction." [See also: "A Psycho-Analytical Study of Edgar Allan Poe" by Lorine Pruetff.]

Greenberg calls PDs "adaptations," which is fair, but as a person who strongly identifies myself as a disorder, I'm pretty cool with saying "personality disorder." It gives me more reason to do stuff related to the destigmatization of mental illness, also. Greenberg also suggests a lot of people sort of fluctuate between symptoms of different PDs.

A lot of people in the schizoid group were upset and confused that Ana from Disorderly Conducts on YT starts off her channel talking about being a "recovering narcissist," and then suddenly switches over to talking about being schizoid. I think it is probably more common to have a mixture of, say, Cluster B pathology only, but it's not unheard of to mix one's Clusters unexpectedly like that.

Some psychologists have, for example, tried to make subcategories of schizoids and call some of them more narcissistic, some more borderline, and some more "classic schizoid." (I'm pretty damned close to the wikipedia entry on SPD most of the time, unless under stress when I can go into a slightly more BPD-like self-hatred and paranoia.)

Of course there is also the "it's all CPTSD/trauma response" line of thought, which I think it where the Crappy Childhood Fairy is coming from (YT), which I can understand, but I still think it's useful to acknowledge that patterns exist in human behavior, even if these are difficult to pin down at times.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3269568/
https://www.jstor.org/stable/pdf/1413669.pdf


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