Should be Excited or Worried

so turns out both schools have the same learning program of automotive engineers, so that's great and I didn't think i would worry abt it but turns out that im only on the waiting list for the one that (from what I have heard from family and friends)allows me to select what class I get. Plus it has like some people I dont think I will do good with but on the other side its always bin like that for me in school. I think I'll be able to focus on my work now and not what others think abt me, like how I use to feel till I got pushed from my parents and started having anxiety. I REALLY HOPE this year will go great, ima set myself better even though I just said I wont care what others think of me. I wont be gross that much no more or making weird statements to make others uncomfortable, this year is hopefully gonna suck outside of school but hopefully be O.K. in school. Only one issue, because im not in ima have to do half independent study which means im not gonna have full classes till somebody gets expelled, suspended, banned, or transferred permanently so till then im not sticking around past lunch sadly, which means less times with friends. Im probably gonna distance myself from them either way cuz that's what usually what happens. Idk if I should or shouldn't be excited for school but I dont really feel anything, I cant do anything right now either cuz flat tire in my bike and kind of feels like my friends are already distancing themselves from me so nothing to do, no job, no friends, and bf isn't here so I can hold him or get kisses from him... yay...