I wanna sleep for a month

ik my about me says I live in the city, but that's sorta a lie (for now).

I used to live in the city! I really liked it. but my ex decided to throw me out because he "felt bad for cheating" and 2 loooong months later I've signed a contract for a new apartment in the city for myself and my baby doggie in my childhood bedroom. it's surreal, but I'm excited to be alone.

I try not to think too hard about how my life looks right now. I feel homeless (my stuff is still packed and I try to stay at my parents' as little as possible) but I'm not, if that makes sense. I try not to think about having to manage expenses alone with no backup and no reliable familial support system, lol. or the fact that should I lose my job, I'll most certainly be royally fucked

on the contrary, I just try to focus on how great it's gonna feel to be alone. I'm sitting alone at my parents' dirty dinner table while I'm watching the house. it's almost midnight and it smells like shit. I like to be around people, but I'm the most free alone. free to think, do and say as I please. it's not that I don't like my friends, I just don't feel seen by anyone but myself. that's just a me thing, not anyone's fault or anything

I try to be my own best friend at the worst of times. but right now, I wish I could just sleep until I can move into my own place and not have to listen to or look at anyone for a while.

but I need the money from working, I guess lol

plus, my darling puppy needs to be cuddled and walked all the time <3