Idk anymore

I sat and watched my mom rant at my dad about how " horrible and vile" I've become when the only thing that's changed is I've stop trying. Stop trying to be what everyone else wants me to be. Stop faking the way I feel. Stop trying to be fucking happy. I just want to not have to worry about that sort of shit. Idek why I still call her mom she us far from it. It's funny because its true.