Uni is terrifying and Im terrified

I can't keep working my shitty deadend job in my shitty deadend town, I don't want to get comfortable in my mediocrity. I dont want to get stuck in it and lost in it until im thirty and wake up and realize I lost my chance to live. I don't know who I want to be but I know it isn't this. I just want to be a part of something bigger than myself. I want to make something that reaches others. I want tangible results. I want to look at what I've done and not just think on what Ive done. Ive been known for having a spark, passion, too much fire since I was so young, but lately I just feel like it's being swallowed by my terror. My love of life is being drowned by my fear of it.