My Day 2022-08-04

 Off day. I begun at 7am and climbed down from my loft bed only to have fallen right back asleep on the floor until 8am. Got up. Blocked youtube on my browser so scrolled around discord for a bit and played some Melty Blood, fighting a losing battle to a C-Arc. Enough video games.

 Didn't go to the Zen temple today. Didn't want to. I'm falling off practice. Ate a roast beef sandwich with lao gan ma in it. Good sauce. Went for a walk. Stopped by guitar center and played with a Korg MS-20FS. Good synth, costs too much. Moog Subsequents were also pretty neat. Even more expensive. Got home. Needed a task for the day. Reset my closet studio to something easier to use. Rack modules face up as I stand over them, synths above. Much easier to use. Didn't make anything. Can't think of anything to make right now. Listen to my bandcamps and youtube while you wait:

https://cittasoundscape.bandcamp.com

https://avaskara.bandcamp.com

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC6cCvUoPOTtum-raN4K_NQw

I believe it was yesterday, not today, that I spoke with my therapist about living with more intent. Never drifting, but to instead consciously and intentionally do everything, and in my further interpretation, everything, good or bad. To live with complete intent is to live fully, not wasting one moment of your precious life. Through this, the path to no-intent, to no-thought, the path to nirvana reveals itself to you. It's closer than you think.

I have a bit of a problem with spending as of recent. Greed multiplies with money, and so do the indulgences to nurture this greed. I will try to live as if penniless from now on. As before I had gotten a paycheck. I cannot buy any yogurt or bubble tea now as I no longer have the money for such things. This probably won't end well, but I have to try something.

It is time for bed. Tomorrow I will practice. And maybe post my experiences here.

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