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Night Fall
Strayshade
Night falls and darkness settles in. I try to sleep but am greeted by my "friends"
"I matter!" My inner self screams
"Shouldn't I matter to someone?" Desperate now it whimpers locked in it's cranium cage.
Mirthless laughter echos through my brain as depression slips it's poisoned claws into my heart. Every thump a pump of venom tearing me apart.
Anxiety awakens and whispers in a voice dripping of oil "why should you?" It's sharp tongue almost gentle as it laps the pain of of my life. it pries open and leaves memories bare before it. Exposing every moment. "Look at this!".
"remember that?"
My skin burns with remembered shame at awkward interactions and failure's forever taunts.
Struggling, drowning, silently screaming. Pulling the mask of normalcy tighter, too tight, ripping away the smile and displaying all my faults.
"There you are." It soothes " Do you think you fool me? You are nothing but an extra in a long forgotten scene."
Fear coils in my throat as anger constricts my lungs. Wetness sears my cheeks as my eyes flood.
"Why are you even here?" Doubt screams in my ears. "Pathetic!" Self loathing jeers.
The pressure gathers and ever breath a struggle well the will to even care dwindles away.
Numbness seeps in. The sanctuary of the hollow.
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