Sometimes i feel lonely

Hi, well it's my first time writing a blog (in english and in general) so I'm sorry if there is any mistakes. 

I have a lot of friends and 3 people I would consider my best friends, but everyone around me seems to be so uninterested in me. I am not really talking with anyone rn that we are in vacations but I have never chatted with them about something else appart from school, all our conversations are so dry specially with "FR", my best friend, when I talk with her I just feel empty. And my BFF since kinder "L" doesn't talk to me, she just answers my messages and says we can't hang out because she has family issues, I understand that, but yesterday she went to a party :( I was invited to the party too so I was surprised to see her there because 4 days prior she told me she couldn't hang out. Plus apparently she already had planed on going to one of her "friends" bday party... 

So about yesterdays party... I felt so humiliated, they basically ignored me all the time

1. They forced me to stay in the baseball game when I DIDNT WANT TO, and then they left. Leaving me there for like 10 minutes.

2. When I started playing MK they instantly left me alone AGAIN

3. The second time I played MK they did the same thing

No one ever tried talking to me I HAD TO SPEAK TO THEM, so I was really quiet the entire time and didn't have a fun time.

It's not really a recent thing, I have been feeling lonely since 5-6th grade

But yeah maybe it's just me and I'm overreacting but I just wanted to tell somebody

Bye :)