spontaneous decisions (I wrote this a week ago and decided to post it here >.<)

7/18/22
heeeeey, I've made the executive decision to try to start posting journals on here of my thoughts and feelings about certain events that happen in my life, mostly if not entirely for me to look back on since I'm not entirely convinced anyone other than me will actually click on this journal.

But anyyyyyway, I went to a sleeping with sirens concert last night with my best friend alex who so graciously went with me despite the fact he knows approximately 2 songs by them. I knew about the concert for a while now and I had wanted to go since I found out about the tour but I don't really have the money for it right now and I have six other concerts planned for the fall time so I told myself I didn't need to buy them but a few things happened that changed my mind.

First of all recently (like a weekish ago) Jack has announced his departure from the band which came as a shock to me despite the band having many line up changes before him. Anyway it made me want to make sure that I could see them in case Justin (my favorite member and the only member besides kellin who is still in the band from when I started listening to them) ever left the band.

The second big reason I spontaneously bought the tickets were because I had unfortunately just got off of being sick with covid and I really needed a pick me up in order to lift my spirits from being stuck in a house with my parents who also had covid (especially my mom who was very frustrated with having covid and took it out by yelling very loudly and banging on shit all around the house). 

So the night before I had effectively decided that I was in fact going, but I was having a hard time deciding weather to pay double for two tickets and ask a friend to go with me or just get one ticket and go alone. Problem being I've never been to a concert alone and I am terrified to do so. So I ended up texting alex who said he would go but he had to work that day.

Also I failed to mentioned I also worked that day, but it was all good because one of my other best friends who is also my coworker and manger for the day who allowed me to leave work early to attend the show.

Anyway fast forward to the next day. I was scuffling around attempting to get my shit around in the morning then I went to work. I went straight from work to go pick my friend up at 3:30 because I assumed he could get out at 4 and we'd have plenty of time to make it and get a good spot in the crowd. 

I was wrong.

It wasn't until I was almost at my friends house that he told me that the earliest that he would be able to get out was 5:20 in which I was preemptively very sad, but waited for alex to get out of work anyway. 

When we had finally got to the venue we made it with time to spare as the first opener hadn't even gone on stage yet, however there was a lot of people and I was terrified that I wouldn't get a good spot. 

Regardless of my feelings in the moment, I grabbed alex's hands and began to push through the crowd to get as close as I could. We were able to get about half way to the stage, but through what can only be described as divine intervention through the use of strategic planning alex and I were able to move up closer to the stage with every mosh pit that opened up to the point where by the time sleeping with sirens came on we were 5 or 6 rows away from the stage. 

I honestly had such a blast, even though I didn't love the openers' music, every single opening band was super entertaining and kept me engaged through their whole set. Plus I met and talked to a super pretty girl with pink hair and a my chemical romance tattoo that offered to let me hit her vape who I very stupidly didn't ask for her social media, but hey maybe I'll see her at the pierce the veil concert we are both going to. Oh and sleeping with sirens were so amazing, they sounded so much better than I imagined live.