4:00 am Vent // talks about being scared for a therapy session // no triggering topics

It's 4:02 am right now and I have therapy in the morning. I'm really nervous for this therapy session because I'm going to be opening up about my relationship with my mom and I'm really scared to go. I can never speak verbally about stuff, so I wrote my therapist a letter discussing what's been bothering me. She also is going to be reading my journal, which I'm not really scared about because I don't vent about personal things a lot in my journal. I'm just scared to open up to my therapist about my mother. I'm scared because what if she shows my mom the letter? Or she tells my mom what I said about her? I trust my therapist and I don't think she would do any of that, but still. Also, what if when I get there, she decides that she wants to talk about something else? And then I don't get the chance to give her the letter. I don't know, I'm just overthinking all of this. I'm gonna go to sleep now, goodnight darlings <3