7/25/22 (slight vent)

Today was super fun!! I went to the pool with my sister and her friend! Then we went to the mall! We also visited a few of their friends at their job. I practiced guitar a little and I almost got the song I'm trying to learn down! I have it memorized but I can't play it without messing up. I've been focusing on myself a lot more lately. I don't know if this is a good thing because I've picked up a few hobbies and I've been doing and thinking about what I'm passionate about more, but I've also been soul searching and thinking about what I want to do with my life. I have no idea what I want. I would like to do something with music (preferably musical theater) but I know I need to have a backup plan especially for that. I'm thinking of trying to pick up art again. There's so much I want to do, and I feel like I have no time. I don't want to give up because what if I make it. What if I hit it big and get famous? But what if I fail? What if all of this effort and work is for nothing. What do I do then? What happens? Do I just...start over? I don't want to think about it even though failure is highly possible with stuff like that. Sorry for the slight vent