Diary Entry I Suppose

I know there's an area for Diary entries but.. idk I feel like I'd, emotionally, get more out of this if I wrote it for the world to see lmao. It's like 3AM, my wrist is absolutely killing me from playing PC games for a few hours relentlessly, and now that I finally get a seconds of clarity with some chill music playing, I thought I'd do a little recap. I am currently living through what I cried about during my middle and high school years. I was absolutely MORTIFIED of the idea of growing up, gaining responsibilities and losing all my friends. I was never exactly a social butterfly so the thought of losing the few buddies I did already miraculously accumulate was really scary to me. But here I am, forced out of my safety bubble that was The High School Experience by a pandemic, and I was aggressively chucked into the real world like most class of 2020 graduates and tbh.... I can't say it's going all that bad! Like, don't get me wrong, I totally understand why I was so scared of this because everything I WAS scared of... well it happened LMAO. LIKE ALL OF IT HAPPENED, I HAVE SHIT TO PAY, COLLEGE IS STILL REALLY SCARY AND I LOST 80% OF MY FRIEND GROUP WHICH KINDA SUCKS TBH LMAO. But it's funny how the universe works man, sure I lost all my friends damn near, but the one friend I did have, they helped me form a completely new one, one that I'm so fucking grateful for. I also have another buddy who, while we aren't as close as we were, I would like to rekindle our friendship since it didn't COMPLETELY die, ya know? Might as well fix it back up if we have a chance to. But yeah, I just got done playing with an ENTIRELY new group that I was introduced to through my coworker and it's going well so far! I see nice things regarding us in the future. But yeah my current main group of friends comprises of one of my school buddies, and a few dudes I met a couple of months ago... funny how that works lmao. Actually now that I'm typing this out, this is all actually really bizarre to me. I made more that a few friends, a fucking boyfriend and I'm not absolutely dreading my life like I thought I would lmao. Good job me... please keep up the good work. It's either human nature or my dad's fault but I can't help but fear the future.