post friendship break up rant.

currently going thru the five stages of denial.

literally cannot stop thinking about them and the possibility of us talking the same way. I CANT HANDLE  REJECTION so the minute I do I pull myself awayyyyyyyyyyyyy. Thats right mfs i was the one who broke it up. LOLLSOKADAHFDHD. literally they were like the only person I talked to on like an (almost) daily basis. so i think that now that I dont have anyone to talk to im kinda just going on a spiral. LIKE I HAVE FRIENDS but we dont talk like that much. AND WHATS SO FUNNY IS THAT THIS KEEPS HAPPENING. like I find some one to talk to and then i talk to them A LOT and then like something happenssdfhnjasf. and a lot of these are guys. so im telling myself to stop this cycle because I keep thinking once its ended like I go thru the same things. LIKE RIGHT NOW. crying. music is the only thing keeping me alive