TW//mention of r*pe

he broke up with me. im not as sad as last time, ive come to learn that if its meant to be it will be ill find the right person one day and he wasn't it so im not sad. were still because before we where friends for almost 3 years. but he wasn't the best he acted more like a bf towards me when we where friends he would call me pretty and give me cute nicknames and it was just everything I wanted but when we got together everything changed. he insulted me more he almost never call me pretty he used to send me kisses and hearts through the screen on ft but he stopped. I want someone who will treat me like I deserve to be treated, who is silly and goofy and will be there for me. who will stand up for what's right. his friends would always tell me to shut up anytime I spoke and the only thing he said was "its just joke". one time he called me a b*tch and I told him not to do that but he said that another one of our friends called me that (which they didn't). I talked to the other friend though. my bf never apologized I asked to apologize but he never did. he's a great friend but a terrible boyfriend. I want a little soft boy who will always be there for me who would never dare to call me such name, someone who doesn't force me to talk about things I don't want to talk about. someone who doesn't make r*pe jokes after ive told him my story. before writing this I was a little sad about it but now ive come to realize after reflecting the past 2 months with him that him breaking up with me is better than being with him he was not good for me and I realize that now.