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hi! so, i'm starting a new job today! which is simultaneously exciting and horrifying. the state of the world being what it is, i have been weary of going back to work. the last job i worked at i had to leave because i had caught covid there because nobody but me wore my mask. i told myself that i would do everything in my power to protect myself from ever catching it again, it felt like my entire body was shutting down by the second. i recovered entirely, and quickly, thank goodness, but i never want to experience that pain ever again.
which makes me scared to start this job today. it's at a liquor store, which means that not only am i going to be dealing with people who probably won't be wearing any masks, but some of them will also be drunk assholes as well. i already know that this job will be emotionally and mentally taxing. two of my friends work there, which will help, but they have already warned me about all the shit i'm going to be dealing with. though, they have told me that i do get to stand my ground to aggressive or rude customers without fear of backlash from management, thank fuck. since we sell alcohol, we have to serve with discretion, so if we believe that if someone is being aggressive, or if they are drunk already, we can deny them service. that is definitely more freedom in dealing with customers than i have ever had at any previous job, so i am glad of that.
the other part i am hesitant about is that i'm trying to go back to school this fall semester, or the spring semester at the latest. i've only gone to university for one year back in 2018, and at the time i was strictly a student, and even then i had trouble keeping up with my coursework. i am very much in a different place in my life and i think i have developed much better time management skills, but i'm still wary about having to balance school and a job, especially a job as emotionally draining as this one.
and what if i catch covid at work and have to miss school? idk, there are just a lot of uncertainties i'm facing at the moment. at least i'll be making more money than i have by donating plasma these past couple of months since i quit my last job. i'll probably still try and donate plasma every so often just for a little extra cash, since my rent is going up at the end of the month with the lease renewing.
i do feel like a bit of an asshole for complaining, i guess? i'm definitely fortunate in the fact that i haven't had to be working these past couple of months, and that i can even look at going back to school (thank you tnreconnect!) idk, i just feel like i need to voice my hesitancy just so i can see what exactly i'm up against.
so, pros and cons, i guess.
pros: will be making more money, going back to work will let me qualify for ebt again, the job is only a few blocks away, so i won't have to drive much, i have friends that work there
cons: having to deal with drunks, covid, school and work will probably drive me crazy with burnout
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