overwhelmed

had another breakdown. how have i already failed at life? almost 18 and stil dont even have my fucking license (not much my fault as my parents dont want to teach me and prohibit me from taking the car on my own). anyways i started reasearching about the two careers i want to go into (police officer and flight attendant) and i keep doubting myself that i wont be able to make it in. i am not attending college so the rest of my life is up to me now. i must take action but this shit is just too complicated and i dont know how long i can keep doing this for.