Dear Alfred

i miss you more than anything, i would give anything just to hold you once more. you were my sunshine and my baby boy. i miss the sound of your footsteps running up the stairs when i called you. you would always try to steal my food and now when i eat at home it feels so depressing  because there isnt a you to pester me anymore. i miss playing fetch with paper balls and i miss you always being in my room with me and i miss your little shenanigans with truffle, i miss your beautiful face that made my heart melt with just a glance and i can never forget the innocence in your eyes, your beautiful blue eyes. i think most of all i miss your presence and i miss the peace that gave me. a part of me doesnt want to move on because i never want to forget you and because it was too soon and i'll feel guilty for doing so. i just miss you more than anything and i dont know how to translate into words anymore and i just feel this hole in my heart now that you're gone all i can think of now is that i hope i gave you the life you deserved. i cant stop thinking about your corpse and i realized your soul already left your body i hope youre still out there and i hope you can make your way back to me <33