am i pathetic?

i feel like im a terrible person. i get so intrigued with people but the second i find them boring i just leave. idk its not relationship wise either, its purely friendship which i think is worst. ive never even d8ed any1, i know that "i dont need 2 be in a relationship at 14" but WHATEVER i dont care! im a teenage girl and literally thats all im gonna think abt anyway. life is just so bleak at the moment and i feel like i try wayyyy 2 hard which is soo lame of me. im such a hypocrite!! all i do now is play bass and buy stickers, like thats allllllll i do. am i pathetic?