d3 check in #1

i dont wanna go into a therapy session on here but to put it simply she is abusing me.

im not gonna talk about it. but i just hate when she's home. i finished learning the dance and im almost there to perfect it. the end is just really fast. but im getting there, i'll post my dance here if i learn how, and if i want to

i have had so much pizza today.. but i have been dancing for over 6 hrs straight for 2 days, so does it make it ok? but anyways. the guy i was talking about. he texted me wanting to hang out at 1am. when he wasn't working all day and was just hanging with his friends. 

he never wants to hang out at normal times. and im still so mad at him for kissing me, and for trying to kiss me on my lips when i TOLD HIM so many fkin times that it makes me uncomfortable and that i hate kissing. 

so he texted me around 1am like not yesterdays 1am but todays 1am. and i told him why would i come out at 1am and he was just indifferent about it. and since my service is turning off tmr night since i cant pay it. i msged him on insta. and so we were talking and i said if he was at work and he said "yeah babe" and i was so shocked

bcuz we have not been on any dates, dates to me are explicitly asking me if i want to go on a date. on our hangouts he never wants to pay for me which is just something i expect from someone who wants to pursue me, like im not apologizing for my standards. and he crosses my boundaries knowingly and doesn't care. 

so i told him to just call me ally, and i said that right after the message and i know he saw it on notification, and just doesn't want to open to message and address it. which is fine by me. you can ghost me or you can start respecting me. period.

on a better note, i started watching shameless, im only on episode 3? 4? i dont remember, i took a nap. but im also looking to start stranger things, because i only didn't watch it when it came out bcuz i dont rlly like watching or participating in popular things bcuz mainly spoilers and bcuz if i do i'll just be hyperfixating then never pick it up again. it happens so many times. so i learned that the whole of s1-s3 is just 36 hours roughly so ill watch it all together or maybe as breaks from shameless bcuz there's over 10 seasons and counting. 

that's all for now, ill ttyl. im gonna be on discord or vrc so yeah!