falling flat

i woke up this morning forgetting an extensive dream that probably doesn''t matter at all. right away i become irritated and let down. i got up this morning wondering if any of the shit im doing is even worth anything. wondering why my purpose feels like its falling through the cracks. ive been trying to do things properly, get some more routine in my life, but the days are still passing faster than I can comprehend. what am i doing any of this for? WHO am I doing this for? i could say 'Me' and it be true, up until the point it leaves me disappointed. feeling lonely again. feeling foolish that it would make more sense for me to just give it up.