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This past week, since my last post, I've been integrating a new mindset of just living my life as it comes to me, "Going with the flow" A particular issue that I mentioned last time was on the way I was hoarding my money to no personal benefit to myself. I've worked on that a lot in the last week, spending my money as I pleased while still making decisions that made sense. I no longer work my second job, and I don't really bother worrying about my work schedule too much, I just take it as it goes. I've been "investing" my money into my personal relationships, going out with people more and sharing the money that I've had the opportunity to receive with those around me. Now obviously, I'm not just giving it away, but like I'll pay for a coffee or a lunch. It's a small gesture and maybe they don't care, but it puts my mind at ease knowing that the work I put into making said money goes to a good place. That being said, I'm still financially secure and am happy with what I have. I always have goals in mind but there's only so much you can do with a rather insignificant income, so I might as well enjoy it. But that's boring, so I'm going to move on.
Friends, tell them you love them, and really show them that you care. I think it's so important that the people I care about know I care about them, but I'm bad at expressing such feelings. You never really know what could happen the next day, they could be gone, you could be gone, and maybe you weren't able to say that last goodbye. I really want to improve that aspect of myself, and just be a better friend. Honestly, I don't really feel like a good friend. Everyone does so much for me and I feel like I don't reciprocate that, and while it's not the end of the world for anyone I just think it's out of pocket on my part to neglect the opportunities and companionship my close friends provide you know.
I want to learn how to meditate and become more connected with the world around me. This kind of ties into the new concepts I'm working on regarding material possessions and the greed I have felt myself leaning into. In the book I've been reading about "wabi sabi", there's a saying that I can't find but basically went along the lines of acceptance with whatever situations come to you, or in the most literal sense "it is what it is", accepting what the world gives you with open arms. There's a meditation teacher called David Nichtern that I wish I could get to talk to, but his teachings in meditation and Buddhism are refreshing. I originally found him through the show "The Midnight Gospel" on Netflix, great show by the way, but I want to really delve into his teachings and gain a deeper understanding of meditations and Buddhism. He has a book out called "Creativity, Spirituality, and Making a Buck" that I will definitely purchase soon, will make a post about it when I finish it. Anyway, I think I'm going to clean my room and actually make it a more inviting space for mindfulness or as David would say "samatha", and embracing the idea of starting and ending the day in meditation. Being able to have a tangible connection to the start and end of the day could lay a great foundation for preparedness and having a calm mind in the face of the hectic days. We'll see though, will definitely be writing more on these ideas and their practicality in the future.
Thanks for reading this snippet of my mind, I hope you have a great day and keep your head up.
Love, peace, and taco grease.
-kelpyg
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iason
"nothing is guaranteed" - tito
meditation is great, especially since it has so many forms. praying, emptying the mind, expressing one's self, it's a great thing.