10/11/21

Helloo, before i start i was thinking about starting a podcast since i love to talk lmao. Anyways, i have not been okay mentally, i mean i came to school high AND drunk today, caused me to sleep all day. I go back to regular school in a week so i should be working to get my grades up, cus im not even in my right grade bc of credits >;  (. To be fair though, freshman year was the worst year ever. I got bullied by the same girls i was getting bullied by in middle school. TW!! They all basically hate me because they either knew or were related to my rapist, and im a "liar and a slut, and shouldnt have put him in jail". They've carried in on for years, even if thats not the reason now, it was the reason back then so it'll always feel like that for me. Either way the adults didn't care nor help when i told. It was always just "ignore them", which is hard to do. Some good news is apparently two of them jumped a girl so now they'll be coming to the detention school im at, so at least thats two not to worry about when i go back. I am pretty sad about going back bc theres like, nobody, waiting for me to come back...? I dont have friends lol..and i just want the experience everyone else is getting..