Tired, Tired of Me

I feel so out of place,

Like everyone is tired of me;

Trying to change my doubted days,

I feel like fire at sea,

She says she hates me,

She says she loves me,

She says she's ugly,

But we're fate, see

,

I find you so gorgeous,

Tired of the fights,

Stuck in the rain that keeps pourin',

Saw the thunder, looking for light,

She says I keep her pushing for life,

I feel lonely in heart,

I wear a mask;

Acting phoney is art,

I just can't care like that

And yet I always cared

Your personality always flared;

We're a match, a pair.

Our time ending; makes me scared

,

That's how I know,

Your love feels like clouds, sky, and hope;

But see,

I have low self esteem,

Cutting my heart, sowing the seems,

A nightmare and a dream.

Feeling like you got me so bi polar,

Looking back, now that I'm sober;

Awaiting the words "our times over",

The words you never seem to say,

Next to you, is where I dream to lay,

Tears on the paper,

As the pen writes these words, my oath,

I turned you into a chaser? ,

But, you want to watch me die slow,

I'm your hater?,

Yet I take every fight, every eye roll

©MattTheOneAndOnly