Struggling financially as a broke artist (RANT)

My family has never had a lot of money -- and as I've gotten older I've come to accept that we probably never will. We've always managed to scrape by somehow, but with every setback it feels like we never gain a steady foothold. These past two years have been the worst so far; we were relying partially on my brother's income to support the household, but... well, to be blunt, he did something stupid and got fired, which screwed us all over. As of right now we are months behind in bills; utility companies are sending us angry letters. We had to spend $200 this week (which we didn't really have) on food. Of course skyrocketing gas prices don't help. Our car needs fixed. We're still paying off vet bills from our two cats that we weren't able to save. 

My dad and I both have medical issues which prevent us from working. Pretty much the only thing I can do is art. In February of this year I set up a RedBubble shop, which has made a total of 2 sales -- one from my best friend, and one from my brother's fiance. Out of the $45 that was spent on those products, I only saw $6.75 of it. It feels like a pitiful drop in an even more pitiful bucket -- it doesn't even meet the $10 threshold to check out. So I have $6.75 sitting there that I'm unable to even use.

So I thought, okay, RedBubble must just be too over-saturated and my work isn't getting seen. So I opened up commissions on my Instagram -- set up a portfolio, worked up prices and guidelines etc... And no takers. Is it just that no one is buying art anymore??? I mean, sure, I'm definitely not the most talented artist out there. But I see simpler designs getting dozens, even hundreds of sales. It's getting depressing. 

I feel weird and awkward and stupid for even making this post, let alone what I'm about to say -- which is: I do have a cashapp and a paypal. I can't use anything with paypal yet though because I don't have a bank account... that's a whole other mess. But still, any donations are appreciated; I know it's cringey AF and it feels sappy and gross even writing it lol. But to be honest I've reached that point where I don't really care anymore.

If you've read this far, thanks. Here's a cookie lol