First year of sobriety

This is my first time being completely sober, including from alcohol. But it sometimes feels like alcohol has been the hardest to recover from, even from everything else I’m clean from. I’ve now got almost 5 years on the heavier stuff, 1 year from my most accessible vice, and 10 months now from alcohol. 

Learning that I am a completely different person from who I thought I was while using/drinking has been wild for me. I sometimes find myself thinking about how much easier social situations were when I had alcohol to lean on. I’ve had to completely re-learn social interactions, and people who have known me for years have had to get to know a brand new person. Learning how to actively use the coping skills I’ve had had been a learning curve, as well as being medicated once again. 

Coming up on my year mark of sobriety, I’ve looked back and compared how my life has been vs the chaos it was while I was drinking. I like my life without alcohol, and I’ve been able to actually make steps to healing. When friends ask if I’ll ever drink again, I’m not going to say that I absolutely never will. I think it’s unhealthy to put that type of pressure on myself. I’d like to say that I would like to never drink again, but offer myself forgiveness if I ever slip up. ANYWAYS, thanks for tuning in to my rambling. Leave your experiences/ thoughts of you’d like!