Current Thoughts #4

VENT READ WITH CAUTION (i just needed to write aaaa)

GODDDD I'm so glad I can write random blogs about my feelings because if I didn't I would cry fr. I don't know what it will take for my mother to realize that he is literally never going to change and I'm getting tired of her coming to me without change. She is taking him and my baby brothers to the movies to watch the film I recommended to make her FEEL better about her toxic love life. How does she not realize how disrespectful she is to watch the movie, I recommended to watch to take her mind off of my bio-father, WITH SAID BIO-FATHER. I'm so frustrated. How can you think I want to go with the man who makes you feel like crap all the time!? This is such a random post so please ignore this. I just needed to write this down because I just got off a call from my mother. FUCKKKK this post is everywhere I just want to scream into a void and eat In-N-Out :( y'know what I wanna ask but I just KNOW my mom will say something about it. These hormones and the hellfire these last few years has been taking a toll on me. I don't think I'll be a functioning adult either oomfffffffffaskifnlasnf I JUST WANT TO ENJOY THE LAST FEW YEARS OF MY TEENAGE LIFE BEFORE I AM A LEGAL ADULT KAMNDLKNLSDKNF augh -