(toxic???) friends who treat you like shit suck

today my friends treated me incredibly bad and made me out to be in the wrong. They brushed away my disability (autism) and basically told me im a terrible person and i should just be a better more normal person which i legit cannot do. they made me have an anxiety attack and told me i always make everything about myself. i asked why someone was crying and they told me i was being horrible and calling them dramatic and stupid. i explained im autistic and they told me im just a normal person so they wont accommodate me. they told me im not special and i dont deserve special treatment. they invalidated my experience and told me i suck. they spread and listened to rumours about me. really bad rumours. now my entire friendgroup hates me for some reason and i only have two not very close friends and my girlfriend who i dont want to put my problems on because shes already going through so much and i just want to support her because i dont want to seem selfish. im posting this here because i know they cant find this and this is my little corner of the internet that is a completely judgement free zone for me and anyone who comments. this situation has alot more to it but im too upset to elaborate currently because im still full of anxiety from my anxiety attack. i know no one will probably see this but if your actually reading this thank you for listening to me ramble and hi :)