choices

June,14,2022

Dear diary,
these past two days ive been severely unmotivated plagued by the decisions im being pressured into making i am a fool for even thinking that the two options they gave me was viable i feel so ungrateful i have yet to leave but im beginning to think it will be easier do i stay and lose one of the three most important parts of my life or do i leave for the better everything ive ever known behind every time things seem to get better everything goes downhill will it be better for me to be on my own where im truly wanted  im stuck either way i lose something  



childhood memory fragment
thirteen years old i was about to pack everything up and leave for good what stopped me and was it good i stopped? or would it have been for the better maybe me not leaving was a mistake and i should take my chance now