I CANT ANYMORE

I CAN FEEL IT IM NOT ENOUGH IM FUCKING USELESS I CANT DO SHIT RIGHT AND YEAH I GET THAT BUT WHY IF I HAD ALREADY TALKED TO HIM ABT HOW BAD I FEEL ABT IT AND WE HAD A LONG CONVO AND I TILD HIM ID HELP HIM GET THRU THE PROCESS AND STUFF SO WHY,,, WHY THE FUCK DID HE DO IT AGAIN AND IT WAS LITERALLY IN PLAIN SIGHT BOTH TIMES I CANT THIS IS MAKING ME FEEL SELF CONCIOUS AND UNCONFIDENT MAYBE THATS THE TYPES OF GIRLS HE WANTS WELL HE CAN GO GET HIMSELF ONE OF THEM BC IM DONE WITH ALL OF IT I JUST WANT IT ALL TO END WHY CANT I FUCKING LET GO I CANT WITH THIS BULLSHIT I WANT TO HARMMYSELF I THINK I WILL I JUST WNAT OUT I CANT WITH ALL THIS IVE BEEN TRYING NOT TO SAY ANYTHING AND IT JUST HURTS ME MORE