I wonder how people will react

Well not really a diary, but almost an exact copy of the OG MySpace blogs.

I wonder how people will react when I revel my true self. Who will be accepting? Who will be disgusted? 

I know my aunt will be accepting and may even be helpful. I don’t know about my parents and step-parents, I honestly don’t think they’ll care, to be honest. Which is a good thing on one hand, but sad on the other. I don’t think my mom and step-dad would be supportive, but at least not disappointed. I think my mom would actually like to have a daughter, she did say she wished I was a girl when I was younger. She also used to tell her friends and my family that she thought I was gay. I mean, she was partially right!

My dad is older, much older, and may not get it. I love him no matter what, but he was pushing me to marry and have children with my ex. I think, he’ll think that means there won’t be any grandchildren from me. I don’t think he knows I can get my stuff frozen! My stepmom will just continue to make snarky comments and remarks no matter what, so fuck her anyway. 

The only person I really care about what they’ll think is my brother. He is open minded, but I don’t think he’s this open minded. He didn’t even like when I told him I was pansexual…I just want to let him know that nothing will change, I’ll still be me, a happier me. When I had a slip up and took a lot of Xanax and told him, he punched a wall and broke his hand. He cares so much, he bought me concert tickets and took me to the movies all this month. I just don’t want to spring this on him either, I’ve been feeling him out about how he feels about the trans community lately. Still unsure, but I’m hoping he’ll be happy for me. Especially, when I tell him that this is basically the root cause of my severe depression. 

My friends? Everyone is basically open minded and fuck em if they aren’t! I’d still whoop their ass in any video game, boy or girl. 

My Grandparents, I already cut them off. My grandfather sent out a mass text saying that a vote for trump is a vote for the soul of America, and that he is fighting evil or some weird stuff. So yeah, not too worried about them. Also, could easily beat their ass if needed. 

This feels so much better when written out.