i hate myself

i never learn CONSTANTLY FUCKING UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN I NEED TO DIE ALL I EVER DO I MAKING HIM WORRY OR ANGRY OR MAKE HIS LIFE IMPOSSIBLE I CAN NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT IM JUST A STUPID PIECE OF SHIT I SHOULDVE SAID NO AND JUST DIED THAT DAY RHEN EVERYONE WOULD BE AT PEACE AND WOULDNT SUFFER BC OF ME