Pre chapter

Been feeling really down despite taking my medication for my OCD and anxiety, parents expect me to cope it out but really I feel kinda bad. My own partner does my stuff and I feel guilty and theres so many deficiencies despite having my life going through the next chapter.

I'm moving out soon and I was so glad I'm reconnecting with my ex friends and it does seem like their life seem to be handling well. They have jobs and high grades while I wasn't like that, I used to have good scores before the pandemic hit or the first year of the online school with the plague hitting. Right now, I could barely go to some class meetings and just not passing in time. What's worse is that i have so many things that are left deficient and my partner is completing them while I try to cope it out. It's already near to the end of the last sem and I was happy the first block of my year ended with good grades. So far the mental state of mine is declining despite putting a face of being "fine". I work with my partner on art commissions but seems like the clients are declining and we used the money we earned on random shit. Work gets prolonged to months because my partner is juggling the commissions and the class works.

I should've seen it as a red flag of how easily distracted my partner is and to be honest, I regret being dishonest and should've not trusted him with my life. Whatever it is, I love him to bits but he isn't the perfect guy I and my family want and need 

Hope shit gets better in the long run... maybe next time i guess.