sexuality n genderr ig

so sexuality has been pretty hard for me. for years i identified as bisexual (i still do) or at least sexualities that fall underneath that umbrella (ie. pan, omni) but recently I'm realizing i may be straight. now this is hard to admit for many reasons the main one being i've been out since 4th grade  (5-6 years) so taking back all of those actions would be a lot or maybe i just never un come out but I'm not sure. and the other thing that makes it complicated is my gender. like i'm definetly not cis but i dont think im fully trans. i've identified as genderfluid and non binary but im still unsure of what gender truly is to me and it's always been complicated. or maybe its just plain as paper and im cis and straight. but idk. my heart skips a beat when i see she or female and i don't feel like its me idk its wtvv