God fuck me

I wish I was better with my words so I could properly tell him how I feel about him, I wish I could read peoples emotions more clearly so I wasn’t always so stressed, I wish I didn’t have anxiety. I’m just so fucking scared and nervous, I really like him, but I’m scared I’m gonna mess up, I’m scared I’m not interesting enough, I’m scared I either show too much or too little affection, I’m scared my anxiety is pushing him away. He makes me very happy and I really like hearing everything he has to say, and even in silence I’m just content being around him, he’s always got a lot to say and all of it is interesting, he’s really smart, he’s so positive and happy too and very animated. And I’m just scared I’ll mess up and annoy him or do something to make him not like me anymore. I just get so nervous around him