just talkin

hi. today hasnt been all that. i woke up, smoked a blunt with the girls. ive been in bed sad for the majority of today. i went to target to get new pants for work and a new swimsuit. the swim suit is cute, i had to get one that doesnt show my butt;( #notbimbofriendly. then we went to go get canes, which was yummy af. currently waiting for marnay and michel about to get home so we can go smoke again. i miss my boyfriend, his hands, his voice, his smell, his pretty aura. he means sm to me fr. today i lost one of my closest friends to the infamous cycle of cwop. i wont explain too much on here. im gonna miss her alot. im so mean to myself when stuff like this happens. i always feel like i couldve done more.