5:52

being cruel to myself will not help me.

i deserve kindness.

i just have had a lot to think about involving someone i care a lot about in my life as well, and it's been a complex, ugly situation that i'm trying to navigate as their friend, acquaintance, and someone who feels mutually about me in a number of ways beyond strictly platonic exchange.

i'll figure something out... but i just thought i'd vent a little bit...

i keep looking forward to better days. on some of my absolutely worst days i was completely convinced (even if only because of overwhelm in the moment) that i would barely recover emotionally, if at all—and then i did. and then better days arrived. and i lived through them. i lived those days.

i'm alive now and that's a lot to be proud of.

— tea