rickety rackety

i’ve been on and off with a certain girl since like november of 2020. idk if i want to date her again or not. when it comes to romance it’s always been a shit show on my part. all i’ve really wanted was someone i can be open with and trust but im relatively sure i have trust issues/issues with vulnerability. also dealing with mental issues. she’s cool though doesn’t irritate me often i just worry how i’ll be affected if we become exclusive again. i already don’t talk to anyone else it’s just that official status that brings up negative emotions. idk i’ll think of something